Why I started?

Why I started bloging??

I love to write about what had happen in my diary..  But, who keep diary anymore this day right..  I used to write before to express my  feeling toward life..And mainly to keep my self on track of what had happen.  The first time I started my diary, that was the first time I fall in love with this boy.  He is my first love and until this moment, I still can not forget about him.  I just don't know my own feeling plus at the ages of 9 years old..who would know anything about intimate relationship with opposite sex.  He  is coming from a socialite family.  Where anyone can do What you want.  Whereas, I come from a simple moderate family who concerns about every members.  well my dad is a principal before, so that makes sense.  I do love him, and hoping we can be with each other but, seems like we are different with each other.  Nevertheless, I still hoping we will be able to getting know each other in the future.  I told everyone that he is not my type but why does He is on my mind for years..  I can't even feel the same way at other boy although I have seen cute boys too, but He is just so special that I still remember Him although I am not sure whether He still have the same feeling with me or not.
Geee..I don't like to be emo and it sound pathetic..